"Wish we could turn back time, to the good ol' days,
When our momma sang us to sleep but now we're stressed out."

Twenty One Pilots - Stressed Out

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It's that time of the year where it seems like everyone is stressed to the max, where everything is changing around us and we're just trying to keep up with it all. I for one, am starting to find it quite difficult and thought I'd do a little sharing time to see if anyone else here is experiencing the same things, and for those of you who aren't experiencing these things to learn about what's going on!

End of the summer holidays

In New Zealand, and for those who follow the same semester/term timetable as us, school and university are about to return and the relaxing summer holidays are going to come to an end. I don't know about the rest of you guys, but I'm a bit scared to go through the transition to full-time holiday to full-time study. 

I know for sure now that during the first week or so back into university I'm never fully prepared for this sudden new workload. I did actually plan on doing some design work for myself, some freelancing organising and preparing for my "major project" over the summer holidays. But of course, all this freedom got to my head and because I didn't have the pressure of expectations I just sort of kept procrastinating and none of it really happened.

I know I'll eventually get into the swing of things, I just hate wasting those first few days or so stressing and doing nothing whilst trying to comprehend this pressure of work.

Summer jobs turning into part-time jobs

Since moving to Wellington I never really had a proper job, but in the last weeks of university last year I managed to pick up a part-time job at a shoe store. Working over summer has been pretty great as I get to lay in bed until just before I'm due at work, head down into the CBD then after work I can stroll back home and have a look in the shops. It's all pretty chill and it's a great time.

Now that university is heading back, I've got to try and balance studying full-time doing an honours degree as well as working part-time. Need I say that I'm picking up more hours when university starts up too?! I'm not the best at balancing commitments and half the time one of them gets disregarded, but I really cannot afford to do it this time (literally and figuratively!)

I know that there are heaps of people who have been juggling studying and working for a long time, it's just that this is new to me and I don't know how I'm going to mentally and physically cope.

Flat hunting

Boy oh boy, flat hunting is a real bitch (apparently I'm swearing on this blog now??) and I hate it with every part in my body. It doesn't matter how early you start looking for a new flat to move into when your current one runs out of lease, it's utter hell. I have been looking online since October to find somewhere to move into at the end of January, yet it's halfway through January and we just keep getting decline letters after decline letters. Or even worse, we ask to view the property and the owners tell us it's already full.

This is probably what is stressing me out the most at the moment, because what if we don't find somewhere to move into? Sure, we can crash on the couch of a friend, but what do we do with all our stuff? We could put it into storage, but that's going to cost to store and move it. And there's no way we are staying at our current flat as the water pressure is like a baby softly crying and the rooms are not quite big enough to fit all our (my) belongings.

Finding somewhere with the perfect move-in date, allowing pets, car parks, number of bedrooms, and allowing a couple while at the same time not costing the world and is actually liveable is a real struggle.

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"I was told when I get older all my fears would shrink,

But now I'm insecure and I care what people think."

Twenty One Pilots - Stressed Out

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I hope this post hasn't spread any second-hand-stress onto you, and you didn't mind this ranty-ness of today's post. I don't really know how to sign this off, apart from saying I hope you're not too stressed out, and if you are, feel free to have a whee rant in the comments below!

- Louise x